It’s been four days since we opened the curtain to the first-ever audience for How Love Wins. I have been in a dreamy fog ever since, reveling in awe at how amazing our first performance turned out.
I want to thank the company, and specifically Jacquelyn Maxwell and Claudia Rhodus, for the absolutely gorgeous commemorative pointe shoes given to me (check out the picture below!). In case you didn’t get to see them, they feature the logo with a beautiful cross and crown of thorns as well as a scroll that lists each piece from this premiere performance. Every detail is so lovely and thoughtful. I can’t wait to display them and will never forget this special time they represent.
The journey of this production over the past two years has been one of the biggest challenges but also biggest blessings of my life. I’ve heard so many positive reviews of the show from our audience. The dancing was incredible and the dancers themselves performed as never before, growing in artistry and passion. Parents volunteered in new ways, filling in every need the show had with generous, selfless hearts.
All the outward successes are awesome and are worth praising God, who put this show together. However, reflecting now about how God used this experience personally in my life, I can’t help but be more amazed at how He used this show to change and grow me inwardly in some profound ways. Through this show, God changed my heart, and I will never stop thanking Him for that. As a believer, I know that the Lord will go to great lengths to reach us. What has touched me more is that He will go to even greater lengths to grow us.
Through the creation of How Love Wins, God guided me to step out of my comfort zone and take a risk. I was often scared to step out in faith this way. During each experience where I had sweaty palms, sweaty armpits and a dry throat (why can’t those be reversed?!), I learned that during some steps of faith, it’s okay to be afraid, uneasy and uncertain. But it’s not okay to doubt God. Though I messed this up a lot, He eventually worked every detail through in His perfect plan. And each time I had to step out of that comfort zone of mine, even if I was still afraid, I learned to trust Him more, and I never had to do it alone.
There were many times in the production process where I came up against hurdles. Through these times I was often frustrated that God, who gave the vision, inspiration and promise for this show, seemed silent. Why would He give me this dream and then, seemingly, not see it through?? So many times when I felt this way, God would speak to me… “Stop depending on yourself. Depend on Me.” God would reveal how I so often attempt to rely on my own strength and not His. When I got myself out of the way, God was able to move as only He can. So often He met my needs through others, and these are the greatest blessings ❤
I learned that when God seems silent, that’s the time to press into Him more, to praise Him more. God asked me to trust Him the most while in the midst of uncertainty and to surrender my fears to Him. I had to change my focus from being determined to figure out what God wanted me to do, and instead to focus on who He is. In the end, He brought everything together perfectly. The show was seamless, God was present and glorified and so many were touched.
The great thing about what seemed to be the end (the show is over!), is that it’s actually just the beginning. I can’t wait to see how, where and through whom God continues to direct How Love Wins.
Thank you all for being part of this journey, and may it continue to grow us all!